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It takes a lot of time to accept things which are not seen while growing . Things which are not touched and lived.
My eyes were wide open but couldn't really embrace the present. My present has been very harsh to my tender heart. Life only showed me the stars but I had to figure it out how the stars were really shining. And I had to look how is life under the water , the taste behind the food, the care for a child and everything that I never questioned or imagined. I started everything from the beginning. 25 years of my life now seems like a waste and futile to what I thought was realistic. Apparently I am not that friend who would laugh at anything funny,I am not that person who would easily get attached,I am not that positive vibe human anymore.
Underneath my whims, my heart always knew that this is just a dream that I am living. The real is yet to come. But I had no idea that it would come this soon and stop my walk for life.
Thank you reading this note by an atrocious woman that you know now.
Will always read. It's a pleasure! You write beautifully.